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tonight, i cross one off

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 00:55:43 GMT

i crossed one off of the imaginary list of things to do in life:

take a shower in the rain.

thanks to the inspiration via my dear roomie whitney, tonight we took advantage of the thunderous torrents of rain with a bottle of herbal essence in hand...
and i'm so warm and cozy right now, wrapped up in my newly acquired mexican blanket, listening to tunes and "writing a paper"... i think it was all due to the random mid-evening rain "shower"... literally... hahaha

now i just need to work on that kiss in the rain...

hah.

a picture's worth...

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 03:26:25 GMT

here are a couple thousand words for you...

<3 them...

things i should be doing vs. things i have done

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 03:59:47 GMT

i have a paper due at 8 am tomorrow morning.

today so far, i have:
conversed on a hammock for a couple hours
hung out with some friends at the refugee center
played with buddy
checked (via el internet) craigslist, my bank accounts, my future class possibilities, hotmail, bic, myspace.... most of them have been checked multiple times
and now i'm talking to hayley on the phone.

oh procrastination...

8 hours and counting...

Monday, March 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 04:40:37 GMT

this week has been an extremely amazing, completely opposite-ended spectrum week.

i've gone from poverty to wealth.
sickness to health
(oh the rhyme...)
a wooden board "mattress" to memory foam
the process has been priceless.
too many things to be said about mexico right now...
go look at my facebook albums to get a glimps

and for now, i introduce you to a new friend of mine...

la mañana de mañana

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 18:54:38 GMT

tomorrow mornin..

voy a mexico. juarez. estoy emocionada, pero antes de viajar, necesito embalar (to pack)... y ahora quiero a dormir o voy al parque para voler una cometa... esta noche embalaré. jaja...tengo ropas por todo mi cuarto. anoche, bailé con mis compañeras a "ibeza" (un club de salsa) y nuestros amigos de belmont no estuvieron aqui... y bailé con un chico latino borracho (pero él fue más o menos guapo)... a despues de, tuvé que bailar con un hombre latino que conocí la semana pasada...y él preguntóme si podría ir conmigo a mexico... BLAH!!! ¡¡¡él tenía tantos años como mi padre!!!

?¡feliz vacaciónes de la primavera!

no hay más clases por una semana... ¡que bien!

adios!

i should be...

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 19:22:22 GMT

doing about a million other things than updating this right now.
por ejemplo: tengo que terminar esta examen antes de mañana y necesito hacer la tarea de los dos clases mañana y turn in los papeles de mi viaje de mexico y escritir un reporte por la clase de educación... pero me siento y espero por una amiga de circunstancias interesantes y buenas al tiempo mismo. espero. los dos significados. espero y espero... y mi vida es buena. y dilación es mi especialización... por otro día

que freakin divertido... la noche sabado pasado con mis compañeras

a lovely evening...

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 04:28:10 GMT

what a great weekend.
family. singing. lovely lovely lovely.
and just to prove it: i have some pictures.

my sweet brother played on a damien rice song and sang too...

i am so happy...

a small journey in song...in the realm of a much larger journey in life

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 05:05:07 GMT

(A dear hymn)
As the deer pants for the water, so my soul longs after You.
You alone are my heart's desire and I long to worship You.

You alone are my strength, my shield, to You alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire and I long to worship You.

I want You more than gold and silver, only You can satisfy.
You alone are the real joy Giver and the apple of my eye.

You alone are my strength, my shield, to You alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire and I long to worship You.

You're my friend and You are my brother, even though You are a King.
I love You more than any other, so much more than anything.

You alone are my strength, my shield, to You alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire and I long to worship You.

(something my mom always sang to me...)

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus;

There's just something about that name

Master, Saviour, Jesus,

Like the fragrance after the rain;

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,

Let all heaven and earth proclaim;

Kings and kingdoms will all pass away,

But there's something about that name

(another wonderful hymn to be remembered...)

All to Jesus I surrender
All to Him I freely give
I will ever love and trust him
In his presence daily live

I surrender all, I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all

All to Jesus I surrender
At thy feet I humble bow
Worldly pleasures all forsaken
Take me, Jesus, Take me now

I surrender all, I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all

All to Jesus I surrender
Lord, I give myself to thee
Fill me with thy love and power
Let thy blessing fall on me

I surrender all, I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all

(A lovely song by Sara Groves)
Remember surrender
Remember the rest
Remember that weight lifting off of your chest
And realizing that it's not up to you and it never was

Remember surrender
Remember relief
Remember how tears rolled down both of your cheeks
As the warmth of a heavenly father came closing in

I want to do that again
Why can't I live there
And make my home
In sweet surrender
I want to do so much more than remember

Remember surrender
Remember peace
Remember how soundly you fell fast asleep
In the face of your troubles your future still shone like the morning sun

Remember surrender
Remember that sound
Of all of those voices inside dying down
But one who speaks clearly of helping and healing you deep within

I want to do that again
Why can't I live there
And make my home
In sweet surrender
I want to do so much more than remember
Remember
Oh surrender

(and finally, good ole' Justin McRoberts)
I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within
I lay it all down, for the sake of you my king
I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride, for the promise of new Life

And I Surrender
All to you, all to you

I'm singing you this song, I'm waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing you, for the glory of your name
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in your pain

i only hope that i can be strong enough to ask for strength where i am so weak...
and truly surrender what might be
for what is yet to come

about me...

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:17:36 GMT

i'm a girl. i want to go to a part of the world that is less developed than the one in which i currently reside and help make it better. sometimes i forget that. alot of times i get distracted. most of the time i get emotionally involved too soon. jesus loves me all the time, and only through that growing realization am i realizing that my life is worth living...as are all the others. i'm really trying to learn how to let God love others through me, and it's hard and i get selfish and frustrated... but there is faithfulness in the sunrise every morning. it's bigger than me. i want to give my life to something bigger than me. and that is where i find myself... in the preparation. in the process. and it's going to be a long one... but there is hope and need and learning and love in the everyday. and that is where i really find myself...taking it one day at a time.

it's been awhile...

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 06:03:34 GMT

seems like i always do this: wait for a long time to write.

and then the moment passes, and i can't write. it can't be forced. but i want it to...i want to write. get it out. so many things to be said. so many condradictions waging within me. wishes, desires... some more noble, some more intense, emotions raging, flying.

lover alone without love.

but love is found, and the focus is regained. sometimes wavering, sometimes guilt-ridden... sometimes requiring all strength within to leave things as they should be... desiring something else...always something else.